Why We Sold.

This post is a little on the word-heavy side.  So go pop a bag of pop corn, pour a Dr Pepper and get comfy.  You’re about to take a trip inside my head and my heart.

After we announced that our house was for sale we got the same question over and over.  It came from our friends, our family, our neighbors, and random people.  I know most people were thinking “You guys are LOCO CRAZY!”  But they nicely said:

“Why are you selling your house?!  AFTER ALL THE WORK YOU DID ON IT?!”

Living Room Design

Honestly, if I had a dollar for every time we were asked that during our selling process we wouldn’t need a mortgage on our new house.

Our intention was never to flip the house.  We made every upgrade because it was what we wanted.  Although, we were always mindful of resale value.  You HAVE to be when renovating.  We knew it wasn’t our forever home.

A quick little backstory on how we ended up with that house in the first place is an important part of the story.  We had only been married 4 months, when the company I had been working for was bought out and I was laid off.  During that time, I was able to cash out my 401K with no penalty.  I was also given a generous severance package.  As a newly married couple, we had barely any savings.  This was in the summer of 2011, the low of the housing market in Salt Lake City.  I had a very strong gut instinct that we needed to use that money as a down payment on a house.  We stumbled onto the house, and knew it was something we could live in and fix up.  I don’t feel comfortable disclosing the purchase price, but it was less than what you could even buy a condo for now.  We were so grateful to just HAVE a house!  It was surreal to us that we were home owners.  We put our hearts and souls into every little thing we did to our house.

The past 3 years, my day job had been in real estate, and I became a Realtor.  I watched the market very closely, especially in our neighborhood.  After Evelyn was born, I just knew it was time.  We tried to put it off.  But that nagging feeling was there, stronger than ever.

There were things that we compromised on when we bought our house.
-Front porch
(No where to put a swing or rocking chairs- a life long dream of mine!)
Outside of house

-Master bathroom
(Just one bathroom for the whole main level)
Main level bathroom
-Walk-in master closet
(We have shared THIS for 2.5 years… and we’re still happily married.  I know!)

Master Closet
-Formal living room
-2 car garage

Now, I understand that nothing is impossible.  And we actually toyed very seriously with the idea of combining the back two bedrooms to make a master suit.  But when it comes to a renovation, you have to look at the numbers and figures.  The return wasn’t there.  The renovation would make it nice to live in, but we would never get that money back in the sale of the house.

It was time to sell, and capitalize on our investment and find a home with the things we had compromised on.

It was a very emotional decision to make.  I’ve cried more tears than I’d like to admit.  I kept telling myself, “It’s just a house, stop crying.” But to me, those weren’t just walls and a room.  Our house was very much a character in our lives.  Those walls box up the memories of significant events in our lives.

We always knew Green Meadow Manor was a stepping stone.  She made it possible for us to have our dream home.  We were able to more than double our investment, allowing us to have the down payment we need for our next home.

It’s still hard.  It’s not just a money game.  I’ve always been a blue personality, and I definitely felt a lot of raw emotions during the process.  I meant to write this post awhile ago, but I couldn’t bring myself to do it until now.  And even now, I feel a twinge in my heart.  I miss my house.  I feel very homesick for a place that is no longer mine.  I wonder what the new homeowner is doing to her.

I’ve never done well with big changes.  This was a huge leap of faith for me.  I heard a quote that said, “Making a big life change is scary.  But do you want to know what is even scarier? Regret.”  I knew if we didn’t do this now, we would lose our window, and I would regret it.  Sometimes you just have to hold your head up high, try not to cry, and say goodbye.

As cheesy as it is… they say you never forget your first love… and that’s how I feel about our first house.

first house love.jpg


And as a little postscript, I’d like to add this for my blogging friends:
I am SO sorry for how behind I am on reading your blogs!  I promise I do care.  I want to catch up, and I will.  Real life is so busy.  I have a very demanding baby who I love with all my heart and needs my attention.  Selling the house was busy.  Selling other peoples’ houses is busy.  Going to Disneyland is busy 🙂  My blog isn’t a business.  It’s just a glimpse of my life, my talents, and the things I like to do in my free time.  I love you all, and I love the internet friendships that I have.  Thank you for being patient with me. High fives all around.



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  • Oh, Kenz…my heart breaks for this parting of something so dear to your lives. But, I will be jumping for joy and cheering you on as you all move forward into your new home. I’ll be waiting to see the photos of the house…and Evelyn!

    • kenz

      Thanks Vickie! I’m glad I have your support! It sounds silly, but I’m really glad I have my online friends who can help me move forward.

  • Rita

    Kenz, your story makes complete sense to me. We also bought in 2011 (and I sold in that year, something I will always be proud of because I sold in a market where nothing was selling but foreclosures–and it was because I worked at it so hard and stubbornly). We love our house now, but we don’t see ourselves staying here forever. We’re in our late 40s, and we don’t think the house will work for us when it’s not full of kids and we don’t have as much energy for upkeep. Still, I know that when it’s time to leave, I will feel very sad. It will mean the ending of a chapter. It will mean saying good-bye to the place in which we became a family. I’m guessing that you (like me) are a person who feels a strong attachment to places. (Why else would we care enough about our homes to do all the we do with them?) I think your feelings are natural and necessary.

    And don’t even sweat about the blog reading thing! You’ve got a LOT going on! Things you need to fully experience and remember, because they are Big Important Things. Blogs are just frosting. 🙂

    • kenz

      Oh Rita. I adore the crap out of you. You have such a beautiful way with words. I’m glad you’re my friend.

  • Vanlun

    Well said Kenz! Changes are always hard but sometimes needed. Happy for you and your family in your new adventure.

    PS- I have a feeling your new home will be your greatest love!


    • kenz

      Thanks so much Vanessa! I hope your business is going well!

  • i honestly wanted to ask you that same question! (did i already? I can’t remember…?) I am s happy that the sale went smoothly and yall are on to the next exciting chapter in your lives! No judgment from me about moving on! Sell that house, make a more beautiful one!

    • kenz

      haha thank you! I mean, it’s a completely understandable question to ask. In fact, I would be curious too if I was on the outside looking in.

  • eranfaraway

    I’m so glad you did what was right for you and your growing family! I can’t wait to hear all about your dreamy new digs. You don’t have to read my blog posts (as few and far between that they are), IRL is important too, and reading every post can be so overwhelming. Thank you for throwing so much positive energy into the universe. You are an inspiration!

    • kenz

      Oh thank you Erin! I always love reading your blog posts and following your instagram. YOU are an inspiration to me!

  • First of all, don’t you even worry about not catching up on blogs. You have plenty on your plate and all the blogs will still be there. I have no such excuse and I can’t keep up.

    Additionally, I love this post. I got the question about selling our first house a lot. It was a different scenario than yours, but also the same. And it was also very emotional for me (so.much.work.and.money.and.sweat). But it was totally worth it in the end. As it will be for you. The two of you made this house into a home, and you will always have wonderful memories of it (and will probably be a creeper driving by to check on it, like I still do 3 years later). But, you’ll adore your new home and it will be all worth it.

    Hugs, friend!

    • kenz

      THanks for the hugs 🙂 You are the best. I want to be like you guys and eventually have rental properties. You are so inspiring to me! We really went back and forth on whether we should sell or rent our house. But if we rented we wouldn’t have near the down payment that we need for our next house. Tough decisions!

  • Ashley

    Totally understandable! Seems like you guys made the right choice! 🙂 can’t wait to see what the new house is like.

    • kenz

      Thanks Ashley! It was definitely a guided choice if you know what I mean 😉

  • Cassie Bustamante

    i know how you feel! i cried when we sold our first house, even though it as never our dream or our forever home. it was the place we had so many firsts- our first house, our first baby (and second!), jake came into our life there…. so much happened there. but in the end we are so happy where we are now!

    • kenz

      I so agree! First houses are just full of so many other firsts. I keep reminding myself that as our family grows in our new house, so will the memories!

  • Aw! I still miss our first house, too (not our second at all, which is kind of weird. I almost feel guilty about how immediately I got over that house that we were in for ten years). It’s so interesting to me how people think about houses and the difference between how you make decisions when it’s your forever house vs. not. Anyway–it all makes sense to me! Our first house was also a big lucky timing money maker that made a lot of things that came after it possible, financially.

    • kenz

      You should post pictures of your first house. I’d love to see it!!

  • You and I have very similar approaches to home buying. We just moved into our first house (second property) a few months ago and have begun renovating it. The husband keeps reminding me this is not our forever house and I actually have nightmares that we have to leave our house! I do love it but he’s right and houses are typically the biggest investments people make. It’s smart to look at them with your head and not just your heart (though, jeez, can that be tough!).

    • kenz

      I’m glad you understand! Good luck with your renovations!!

  • Julia @cuckoo4design

    Don’t worry, I couldn’t even have focused on any of the stuff when my kids were babies.
    And I also think following your gut feeling is the right thing and I can’t wait to follow along what you will do next.

    • kenz

      I keep saying that I have no idea how there are so many mom bloggers! My blogging consistency has gone waaaaay down since having a baby!

  • High five Kenz. I am one of the types that don’t get why you wouldn’t sell and try something new, but then again, I LOVE to move 🙂 I am so excited for you and to see the new place and what you do there!

    • kenz

      You love to move?! You are a rare kind Miss Katja!

  • thediynurse

    You have to do whats right for you! So excited to see what comes next 🙂

    • kenz

      Thank you! YOU are the one with big adventures little lady!

  • Tara @ Surburble

    High five back, lady. Keep being rad…. I can’t imagine working, selling my own house, selling other people’s houses, and also being together. You’re killing it!

    • kenz

      haha I don’t know if “killing it” is what I’m doing. I’m usually on the verge of breaking down every 5 mins.

  • Amber @ Wills Casa

    You absolutely made the right decision for your family. The market is crazy right now. Take advantage of it. GMM is as perfect and finished as it should be. You will love your next place just as much and surprisingly quicker than you realize!

    • kenz

      I feel like you understand this more than anyone else in my life right now. Probably because you literally just went through this. Also, you understand the market because you are a rockin new real estate agent 🙂

  • anne @ wit wisdom and food

    As you can see I am behind on the blogs too! Wow big news. I loved watching that house come together and will miss my favorite scalloped wall. I am super excited to see what you do with the next house. Especially since I will finally be buying my first house in the next 6 months. I am going to need your inspirations. Congrats this sounds exciting.

  • Jenn @ My Fabuless Life

    Totally crazy and possibly bordering on stalkerish, but I’m pretty sure this is the neighborhood I grew up in (I grew up on Green Acre Drive). You have amazing talent and I can’t believe what you’ve done with your home–can’t wait to see what you do next!

    • kenz

      It is definitely the same hood! Small world!!!